Never really thought that a design school can torture me this bad. Thought this major will help me slow down after science high school, and its true,,,,,NOT! =.=
Spent my 2weeks christmas-new year holiday at home to do the 3D thing (i suck so bad at 3D and need to catch up A LOT TT.TT)
I was seriously locked myself at home for like 10 days in a row doing my homework till the point where I got a strange disease called Raynaud's phenomenon where both of my hands were swelling so bad that i couldnt even bend my finger =(. So did my feet but they were better than my hands. And I found out later on that the cause of this phenomenon was because my vain couldnt handle the cold temperature and became smaller when the temperature drop.
And the silly thing was I didnt feel the cold because I stayed in the same place (in front of the computer for practically 10 days minus the time to do the shower-toilet and cook....-.-) and I put all my concentration to my homework so I didnt realize that it was freezing cold!.....And because my hands were placed higher (on the table to move the mouse) almost all the time, so my blood found it hard to reach the hand. My hands were numb and swollen quite bad for like 4-5 days and I have to use the mitten all the time.....Was so hard to do the 3D with these mitten TT.TT.
On day 4 I decided to showered my hand with a reeeaaalllyyy hot water and it worked quite well (I dont even feel the hotness of the water!!!! scaaarrryyyy). It was healed in 2 days, but now the phenomenon comes quite often if I dont put the gloves/mitten when I go outside or if I put my feet like 5 minutes against the "feet of the table" (I dont really know how to call it LOL) that made of iron (its cold because the temperature here is low =(), or if I wash the dish or even if I wash my face with a cold water. Huhuhuhuhuhu TT.TT
Despite those swollen fingers, was still doing my homework until the very last second of my holiday. And even I wasnt able to finish it all but I'm still proud of myself for not quit trying.
And here it goes the "oh-so-inspiring" story of mine about ARASHI=P
Lately (well, it's actually almost a year now) I always inspired by how hard the members work since they were young. I mean, I read somewhere that when Aiba collapsed due to his lung problem, he was thinking about his job as arashi's member and begged the doctor at least to be permitted to attend the program they were in (the one that apparently has made him got a lung problem TT.TT). And he was like....what....18? 19? 20? All I know is, even though he seems dorky-dorky and seriously-not serious type, but he has a high sense of responsibility. Then when he made the mythical "24hours" letter to the other members, he once again show the sense by apologizing because he has made the other members held the responsibilIity because of him. Its kind of inspiring me sooo much.....
Then there's Jun with his ambition to always do the best in everything, Nino with his work hard and play game harder =P and ohno with.....rrrr....with.....ehm......honestly I cant find any relation of hardwork and riida....hahahhaha but anyway his calm personality makes me envy him so much and now I'm trying to plant the calmness inside me too =P. And everytime there's anything wrong with my project and school stuffs, would just remember riida and feel so.....calm...hahahha....Ah, and also his patience for doing the stuff he's good (or best) at and not get bored and keep on doing it has somewhat bring an inspiration too for me =D
And at last but not least, there's Sho.....with his....everything..... By everything I really do mean everything! His everything has inspired me so much that I feel that I should meet him and thank him personally because his everything-ness has supported me (until this very moment) indirectly LOL (yeaaaa dream on....dream onnn....talking about meet him personally is like saying me being a doctor, which is ALMOST impossible =P)
His hardwork during the time when he juggled between school and entertainment business has inspired me that if I work hard hard hard and harder I can reach everything that I or anyone else think I cant. Well, I dont know him in person, I dont even know if he got a good mark at the university or he just graduate with an "almost OK mark" LOL. Well, even if its the "almost OK mark" I trully understand. It's quite hard for some people to even graduate on time sometimes, and Sho with his crazy schedule and school, am not expecting that much ^^V.
His hardwork to keep his head on the ground has inspired me to respect EVERYTHING that I have and has happened my life. I remember (if I'm not mistaken -.-) in his graduation interview, one of the reporter asked if its hard to do both school and entertainment, then he answered that there are a lot of students that do a part time job too (like working in the supermarket and stuff). "Isnt it kind of the same?" From the time I saw the interview, I seriously always thankful of my condition. I probably alone and a stranger in this country, I feel so dang lonely lots of time, and my school thing doesnt help me at all to feel better, but its better than never knowing what the other side of the world looks like or its better than have no opportunity to learn at all. Its not always about me. If I can put myself in others shoes, I'll see the real beauty in my life. I'm so blessed.
His hardwork and willingness to always be a better person has inspired me to be a better one too. I remember from some articles that he was quite bad temper and a little bit snob on his jr. days. But what I see now is a kind and serious man with a tiny bit of kiddy-boy stupidness sometimes. He can be so stupidly-funny and so damn cool-serious when needed. And it makes me realize its ok to do so. I dont have to look so serious all the time (like i did the last 2 years due to some reasons =P) and its ok if I show my crazy side to my considerably "new friends" here. The image that another person get about me is less important than who I really am. Like Penelope Cruz said (un-arashi but somehow related hohoho) you cannot live your life seing things from others view..... I do what I believe is right (right time, right thing, everything right =P), and that's all I care now. And now I feel so happy cause slowly but sure I'm able to release my tension, be who I am and have fun with my class =D.
His hardwork to keep his friendship, familyship and everythingship has inspired me to pay more and more attention to everyone around me. When I watched hanamaru cafe I heard that he went to osaka quite often than a regular person JUST to visit his friend that was working there then go back to Tokyo. He said he does it because his friend is a regular worker and dont realy have much free time (hellowwww shooo, and so you think you have more free time than your friend does??? thought it was vice versa LOL). How he always seems to never forget to be thankful to everyone who has taken part to shape him up and made him the Sho we know now, has inspired me to never ever forget everyone who did, does and will take some part (be it good or bad) in my life. I'll always be thankful for them to shape me up and will always keep my feet on the ground like he does.
His hardwork to always get closer to his "dreamworld" (politics and serious stuffs ="=) has inspired me to always keep on track in reaching my dream. He did the uni thing (and am quite sure that it wasnt easy) but in the end he choose the entertainment instead. It probably was like you work so hard to earn money and then you just throw it all away like a rubbish. But no-no-no. A hardwork is never gonna be able to be thrown away easily (read = useless...), it's always just hasnt be able to be used YET. Yes, there are a lot of ways to get "there" and the direct roads are BORING! So now I let the obstacle and problems coloured my day and solved it AND having fun with it, so one day I'll be able to look back and proudly say = I'm here because I've been through a lot of things that makes me grew stronger and better each and everyday. I'm here cause I NEVER did give up.
His hardwork on everything has made me feel like I CAN NEVER LOSE TO THIS GUY!!!! NEVER! LOL =P I shall never lose to him. And I always remember this when I'm on my limit, and surprisingly it works well =D.
It's seriously funny for me, how an idol that I thought so....EWWWWW at the first can inspire and taught me to be thankful in my life =).
Honestly I wasnt interested in Sho from the begining that I like Arashi as a group (I knew arashi from like....7 years ago and wasnt even interested on them until the day that I met MoMo which is like 1 year ago ^^). And honestly (Sho wifeys please dont give me a punch >.<) found it hard to think that he is handsome or hot.
He's much more than a hot body or a cute squirell smile. He's much more than a look, at least for me.
I probably dont know him in person or worse WONT (TT.TT) even get a chance to know him in person. I probably got manipulated by the media and entertainment system. I probably just see what I WANT to see. But even if this just a public image and what I know isnt really true, i still want to thank him for being there and being the "image" that I think I know.
And since tommorrow will be his day, I spare my homeworking time and write this longlonglong grateful story and even this, again, probably wont even be read by the one I admire himself =) but I still want the world to know, how thankful I am for him to be existed.
HAPPY (early) BIRTHDAY SHO-san!
hope that you can inspire more and more people. Its the greatest thing one could do! Be meaningful for others, even though you might not realize it, you've changed my life in your own way =) THANK YOU!
I know I probably wont make it on time to congratulate him on the day due to this hectic period (I seriously dont even remember the date and the day TT.TT), so I do it now while I remember =).
For those who are reading this longlong post until this point, I thank you too =)
*Now, run back to my assignment. *sigh* but with smile (can you guys do that? a tired sigh with a smile? hahahahah =P)
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